I could tell you that everything has been easy but it hasn't. I am always tired since Spencer keeps getting ear infections and gets cold so sleep has been a luxury when we get it. Our life is definetly different now, but do I miss the old life ya but I would not change anything if I could.
Being a dad is so different and rewarding that it is almost scary how much you care for your son. I wonder all the time if I am doing the right things, is he going to be a big brother, will he be a good man when he gets older, what dreams will he reach and which one will disappoint him. All the thing I went through to become who I am today culminates with my son. Passing everything that I have learned or not passing things on so he can learn it for himself.
It makes you think a lot of the present and the future. We went to the Cardinal's game on mothers day, Melissa's first official one, and Spencer's first ball game. As we were sitting and he was looking at the ball park I could only imagine what it will be like in a few years when we go to the game when he can ask me questions and I can explain what is going on with the game. Granted I have to brush up on some thing but I have a few years till then. To the future dad out there and the future me always remember that this is your son and thing you do today will shape his future and who he become in life. I always have pictures of him and my wife on my phone to remind me that everything I do today will affect his future.
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