Away

My son is 4 months and 2 weeks old and this weekend is the longest I have been away from him. I know I am new to this dad or parent thing and it will pass but I feel bad. My son is sick and my wife is getting what ever I have which I think my son gave me or one of my students. Anyway I am here in Chicago and I can't help her and that's not counting my dog being a butt head this weekend. I am definitely home sick and miss my family.
It is funny cause my life has changed so much and how I look at life is so different now that I can't take things for granted. I can't tell you that if you don't feel this way when you become a parent that you are a bad parent cause I don't know your situation but I know if you feel like you are doing everything in your power to love and care for your child and he or she grows up a great member to society then you did a good job. I only hope that I do a good a job as my parents. Which is funny cause I always thought that they were wrong or sometimes mean. Now I see that they were just making sure my brothers and I grew up proper. Thanks mom and dad. I miss you son, and I will always love you. To my wife I am sorry I got you sick, I'll take blame for it. I love you so much it is crazy, thank you for everything.


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17 weeks

Well I have not been on here since, before my son was born and life has so different. I knew it was going to change once he was born but it is so strange to watch the birth of your son and knowing that everything that I do will affect him. So let start with catching up with what has happened, the short version, A LOT! He decided that he did not want to come out and we had to induce my wife on my birthday that I no longer own. That day that I held for 33 years, now belongs to my son. I don't mind anymore, before it did bug me that it was a possibility but now it just something that I can not worry about. Delivery was long and both my wife and my self were exhausted but it was all worth it, since he was a healthy baby with tons of hair.
When I was younger I always imagined having a kids but this is nothing like I ever imagined. It is so much better that I imagined it. It true that I miss my previous life some days but when I son looks at me and give me a little smile it make it worth it. For those of you that are dads or are expecting some advice, that control you thought you had with your life is now controlled by a your little bundle of joy. Ah spur of the moment trips or happy hours well those are things I to wait to do when he gets older.
Bottom line I live being a dad and seeing my son smile.